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  • Mood: Miserable
To a point I don't care what people say but ... It's starting to get to me.
I already hate myself so what more can people say to me to make me lothe myself any more?

What the fuck is wrong with some of you people!?
BDA is so strong and loving! How can some make her feel that way?
well I'm here to explain who BDA really is! The kind of person you people seem to overlook!
BDA is a twenty five year old woman who has always depended on herself. She had been battling severe depression since she was 9years old! Since losing her grandfather, her father figure who raised her, to cancer. 
Most of her life was spent with people bullying her, because they knew her weakness. Yet she never cried! She tries not to because in her life she has to be strong! 
Now she's working with people with disabilities and loves her job. The younger ones call her Gingy! She's always up beat and tries to stay happy for the ones she works with.
she gets beat up by some she works with, yet she continues going in to spend time with them and work.
now she's working several jobs to help her grandmother! And she's helping to raise her niece. That little girl looks up to Jenny! I swear if anyone needed a heart, she'd be on the table ready for surgery! 
Ive known Jenny forever. She's the kind of person that would make someone smile even if she can't because she knows the feeling of sadness and hopelessness. She never would wish it on anyone no mater how much that hurt her. Sometimes she struggles with her depression. It's getting harder for her to function, yet she still smiles for people.
As for me, Jenny hates pink! Yet she finds it easy to wear the pink ribbon for me. She was my support and comfort through everything. She's an amazing person! Anyone that says otherwise just don't know her! If she's cold to you, maybe it's because she's doing it for a reason! Ever think of that!?
and the people making her hate herself, how can you live with yourselves?
jenny if you see this... Know that there are people that love and care for you. 
I know I am. You've been great to defend and support all the ones that need it. I love you Jenny don't worry about what haters say. 
love always 
Cally
  • Mood: Anger
Oh my god I was stuck with the person I hate most of all on an important date. Officials of the Company came in and I was partnered with the guy that wanted to date me on a dare!
oh god I know I'm not pretty! I know I'm fat! I'm single! And I'm a pathetic excuse for a human being! I fucking know! I don't have to be reminded every day that I'm a waste of space! 
I see it everyday I look in the mirror!  I wanna shot the person I see in the mirror just because I know there's nothing worth losing!
I see a fat ugly plain person that has little to no value in this world! I don't need everyone telling me what waste I am cause I already know. 
He keeps taking credit for everything I do and he did nothing so now I'm in trouble with the managers, he's in no trouble at all. 
Yhen he brought up I'm to slow and fat to do anything around the building (which I know I can out bench him) 
then everyone was asking about our families. Oh wow everyone is on their own? I live with my grandmother and raising my niece( she's like my daughter) I'm single and no one shows any interest  in me! I'll die alone so what? 
Im just getting so fucking sick of being a pushover! There are times I wish to end it all, though I try not to.
Cally always told me I spent all my time caring for others that I never cared for myself... I'mbefective anyways so .i don't care if I'm broken I can' just be glued together just to fall apart again. 
  • Mood: Wow!
Kio told me to write a stupid new journal so I did
no but seriously I am helping AnimeCitizen write a Xiaolin Showdown comic YAYA us
  • Mood: Miserable
To a point I don't care what people say but ... It's starting to get to me.
I already hate myself so what more can people say to me to make me lothe myself any more?

What the fuck is wrong with some of you people!?
BDA is so strong and loving! How can some make her feel that way?
well I'm here to explain who BDA really is! The kind of person you people seem to overlook!
BDA is a twenty five year old woman who has always depended on herself. She had been battling severe depression since she was 9years old! Since losing her grandfather, her father figure who raised her, to cancer. 
Most of her life was spent with people bullying her, because they knew her weakness. Yet she never cried! She tries not to because in her life she has to be strong! 
Now she's working with people with disabilities and loves her job. The younger ones call her Gingy! She's always up beat and tries to stay happy for the ones she works with.
she gets beat up by some she works with, yet she continues going in to spend time with them and work.
now she's working several jobs to help her grandmother! And she's helping to raise her niece. That little girl looks up to Jenny! I swear if anyone needed a heart, she'd be on the table ready for surgery! 
Ive known Jenny forever. She's the kind of person that would make someone smile even if she can't because she knows the feeling of sadness and hopelessness. She never would wish it on anyone no mater how much that hurt her. Sometimes she struggles with her depression. It's getting harder for her to function, yet she still smiles for people.
As for me, Jenny hates pink! Yet she finds it easy to wear the pink ribbon for me. She was my support and comfort through everything. She's an amazing person! Anyone that says otherwise just don't know her! If she's cold to you, maybe it's because she's doing it for a reason! Ever think of that!?
and the people making her hate herself, how can you live with yourselves?
jenny if you see this... Know that there are people that love and care for you. 
I know I am. You've been great to defend and support all the ones that need it. I love you Jenny don't worry about what haters say. 
love always 
Cally

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Current Residence: In the insanity in Ohio
Favourite genre of music: metal, country, Jpop
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Personal Quote: Real power is when you surpass your own desires to protect something precious.
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NightmareOnMySt Featured By Owner Jan 29, 2016  Professional Traditional Artist
birthday cake Happy Birthday Godliek :D birthday cake

Birthday Cake  :D keeki :cakerun: Birthday cake Pixel Cake Cake for Shifteh cupcake vanilla cake 
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NightmareOnMySt Featured By Owner May 19, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
hey best bud how you been! Tight Hughow's life been treating you?
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BloodDragonAlchemist Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Hobbyist
Uhgi gots5 kittens
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NightmareOnMySt Featured By Owner May 21, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
awwwwwwww!~ are they all healthy?
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BloodDragonAlchemist Featured By Owner May 22, 2015  Hobbyist
Oh yes they all are
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NightmareOnMySt Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
Hey buddy how you been? ^^
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BloodDragonAlchemist Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015  Hobbyist
Eh work is killing me snow is getting higher.... And worse of all.... I'm low on Dr. Pepper oh god why am I low on DP!! Lol jk thanks for asking and you puddin?
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NightmareOnMySt Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
OMG....NOT THE PEPPER! X3 but don't feel bad the weather is pretty bad where I live too. And work oh God don't get me started I'm actually trying to find a new job
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BloodDragonAlchemist Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015  Hobbyist
You were a secretary right?
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