BloodDragonAlchemist

Do forgive me but it’s been over a year since I had lost my grandmother. On May 9th of 2021 at 2:30 am we lost this wonderful woman. The blow was cruel that we lost her on Mother’s Day. I felt there was so much I wanted to say to her. And I typed this letter for her. Though I know she can’t read it now. But I do know deep down she knew how much love I will forever hold for her. So please forgive grammar or anything. This is just something that had weighed on my mind for over a year, and I think I’m coping enough to finally get it out. So please no hate. So, this is a reflection on my life with her. Dear Grandma, I know you have been gone over a year. It’s been so difficult without you. I now come home to an empty silent house. I can’t hear the laughter you have as you watch your Golden Girls. Or the calm snore you have as you relaxed with a Bob Ross video. Or even discussing with yourself at Abby’s drawing videos. Playing the find it games on your iPad and cussing out

To a point I don't care what people say but ... It's starting to get to me. I already hate myself so what more can people say to me to make me lothe myself any more? What the fuck is wrong with some of you people!? BDA is so strong and loving! How can some make her feel that way? well I'm here to explain who BDA really is! The kind of person you people seem to overlook! BDA is a twenty five year old woman who has always depended on herself. She had been battling severe depression since she was 9years old! Since losing her grandfather, her father figure who raised her, to cancer. Most of her life was spent with people bullying her, beca

Oh my god I was stuck with the person I hate most of all on an important date. Officials of the Company came in and I was partnered with the guy that wanted to date me on a dare! oh god I know I'm not pretty! I know I'm fat! I'm single! And I'm a pathetic excuse for a human being! I fucking know! I don't have to be reminded every day that I'm a waste of space! I see it everyday I look in the mirror!  I wanna shot the person I see in the mirror just because I know there's nothing worth losing! I see a fat ugly plain person that has little to no value in this world! I don't need everyone telling me what waste I am cause I already know. He